I have a horrific memory. It's actually kind of scary how much of my past is a blank slate. I am always amazed when people give detailed acounts of numerous things that happened to them in their childhood or even two to five years ago. And don't even ask me when something happened, as in a date or year. I have NO concept of time.
That said, I do have a few memories. Splotchy, vivid images of the craziest things. They're almost like out of body experiences rather than memories, because I see myself. Like I'm watching me in a movie. I know. I'm weird. I was born this way.
Thinking back, I do believe there were early signs that I am not entirely normal. (Although who's to say what normal is?) One of these vivid 'memories' involves me swinging on a swing in our backyard singing Petulia Clark's 'Downtown'. Considering where we lived at that time (my family moved a lot!) I couldn't have been more than five. Shouldn't I have been singing nursery ryhmes or something? I also remember being on that same swing and thinking, "Someday I'm going to be on Johnny Carson." Not Romper Room or the Mickey Mouse Club, but The Tonight Show. Jeez.
Another vivid memory involves me, yet again, on a swing. Only this time it was on a school playground during recess. Considering where we lived at that time, I was maybe seven. The song of choice: Born Free. I can remember the sensation of swinging as high as I could, the elation, and singing "Born Free! As free as the wind blows. As free as the grass grows. Born free to follow our heart!" And so on, at the top of my lungs, from beginning to end. Yes, I knew all of the words.
I told my husband that once and he laughed so hard he had tears in his eyes. To this day, if we hear 'Born Free' or if the movie is mentioned, he smiles. He says that image of me as a little girl on a swing, singing 'Born Free' cracks him up. "What kid sings 'Born Free'?" he asks.
Um, well, me. I'm telling you, it was a sign of things to come. *G*
What's one of your earliest memories, a sign that perhaps you were maybe a little, er, different?