Yesterday was a marathon writing day. As was the day before. Today it'll be broken up a bit by a four hour work day at the library. I need that break. I'm so deep into revisions, so focused on key elements and specific scenes, that, as of 11:30 last night, I lost my sense of pacing for the overall story. I'm second-guessing myself anyway.
The thing about revisions--it's a domino effect. Every change you make touches previously written passages. Sometimes it grazes them, no harm done. Sometimes it knocks them off kilter, surgery required. Sometimes it topples them and you're staring at ruins, wondering how can I save this? Or should I bury this and let something new arise from dust?
That's where I left off last night. Reviewing a scene that now, because of heavy revisions to previous chapters, struck me as a pile of ruins. Because I kicked up the action in two aspects earlier on, this scene now reads like dead weight. I'm in the homestretch, I can't afford to bog pacing. On the other hand, there was some key info in that scene. Maybe it wasn't dead weight, so much as I was dead weight--meaning BURNT.
To make matters worse, the scene after that involved a character that I was asked to cut. There's only been mention of him twice earlier in the story. So twice I'd simply deleted a line or two--no big deal. But in this scene, the character was present and very much involved. Cutting him out completely in this instance was going to require a lot of work. Thus I stared at the entire chapter wondering, do I perform surgery and save it? Or do I bury it?
I stepped away from the computer, decided to sleep on it. As of this morning I'm still not sure. Axing that character is merely a pain-in-the-butt. I just have to do it. PACING is my bigger concern. A major concern. Unfortunately, this may require my backtracking and reading the story in its revised form from the beginning.
Ever read an interview where the author said that by the time he/she turned in revisions, they were numb to the story? This is how that happens.
Maybe some more coffee would help. *g*